the start

Well, here is the start!
January 2007!
I knew God had changes in store for us. We just got liscensed as foster parents and after a year of trying for a baby, well lets just say January was welcomed with open arms.
I was ready for a change, ready for God to use me. Ready to feel like I had purpose. Ready to make a difference. I was ready for whatever God had for me.
Last week tuesday 16th. I got the flu, like I have never had it before! Slept all day Wed. managed to feel somewhat better thursday when we got a call.
"We have a baby, 2 months old. Can you come get him in 30 min."
"YES!"
So, baby S came to us thursday the 18th and the following day eric and grace came down with the flu. LOL, oh the irony.
And today is Wed. and the flu is just out the door. And baby has been great!!
I have been great despite every 3hr feedings. And I love sleep but somehow its been easy!
Now, the baby has been easy. Grace on the other hand, my wonderful drama queen of a daughter haha, thats a whole other story! Yesterday, she had a SLIGHT Cough but she has this gag reflex thing so coughing often leads to throwing up! So I am picking up baby from visit and Grace is coughing and gagging and AHHHHHH. That morning she had thrown up all over. I just started to cry. I had no one to call no one to say can you come stay with Grace while I take baby to visit. Eric was working, and I had no one to call. That wasn't a good feeling, not having someone to call.
Where this post is going, I don't know.
But I do know that today, Grace is *almost* back to normal and I was driving and just had this sense of Happiness! Like, I am being used by GOD! Talking to baby S's mom and just showing love to her and loving this baby has been more fulfilling. And yes, its a very demanding thing and emotionally probably draining to some but for me its filled me. Filled me with purpose filled me with something I haven't felt in a while.
I don't know where God is taking me but I know He is using me and thats a good feeling.
So I start my journey.